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Name: Brent
Country: Canada
Metro: White Rock
Gender: Male
Interests: God And All His Gifts (Such As):
Missus Caitlinjoy (the love of my life), life itself, people, movies, music and photography, art in general, creativity, nature and the sexy scenes in the world... DO ME NOW! muwhahah... heh, yeah i know, i'm a little crazed in the brain bucket~
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
Message: message meEmail: email me
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AIM:  justaguy2119
MSN: gimped_up@hotmail.com
Member Since:
1/9/2005
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| i feel like death...
i pray that God will meet me where i am...
i long for his presence
i long to feel his love
i have made caitlinjoy my life and without her here
i am lost (hehe no joy?)
eeep i dont want to do anything, talk to anybody, hear anything from
anyone at all... i just feel like not existing until she comes home... im so dependant~
heh i suppose this is both good and bad - it shows me just exactly how
much this amazing girl means to me, and how much i need her in my life
- i just wish it was somewhat easier to cope with while she is away
with her obligations -- you're a doll missus, i can't wait till you get
home!
see you wednesday night? =) and then the great many days after thursday night? =)
on
another note - i suppose its worth noting that i've become wayyy too
accustomed to my routine - to the point where i dont even know what to
do with myself when time comes up when i'm not obligated to be
elsewhere or when i dont have plans for the near future - i mean i
suppose theres lots of things that i could be doing, but because i'm
not being forced into it out of desire or obligation, then i just end
up not doing it and checking my emails 2520340 times in a day and
pondering what i'll be doing with my life over the next few years!
heh there are some notably
interesting concepts coming into play though - i might be moving to
south africa to finish up my degree, i might simply be heading there
for a visit, i might be changing jobs back home here to a position
which pays nearly twice as much as what i'm making now, has 12 hour
shifts, and is super highaction, i might be starting to branch out with
friends (hehehehe so that they can all admire me and my loves baby when
it comes around and we'll be known as a radcute young couple~) i will
be getting a car sometime within this next year (from my grandma - heh
so infamily deals are usually somewhat... kinder?)
eeep - i believe its time to start setting short term and long term goals
heh then at least i'll be working towards something.
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| I FEEL LIKE ANNIE
Tomorrow!
tooooomorrrrowwww!!
haha listen to my song bitches <3
i'm so excited
but at the same time
its never soon enough =/
EEEP
LOVES
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| i miss caitlin...
my hearts bleeding
heh
i'm nothing without her
i'm everything with her
she makes me whole
her presence pushes me to be more than i could ever imagine
she's so dreamy...
heh God brought us together
and i pray every day that God will keep us together<3
i miss you so much caitlin...
life sucks
and i have everything anybody could want
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| my brain seems to be rippling under the surface...
ever since i started to sleep
it started to move faster
and faster and faster
i feel alive...
drained emotionally/mentally
but alive
i miss the shit out of caitlin
but i'm sooo excited for when she gets back
because... hehe if this carries on/continues to grow...
then she'll be blown away
i feel the artist exploding in me
concepts ideas visions keep bubbling up to the surface
oh what will i do with them all!
EEEPCAKES
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| eeep
i have no memory
its kind of sad.... really sad to be perfectly honest - maybe it'll come back when i sleep for a bit?
i've been living the last long while
of my life out of a solid state of sleep deprivation and i think its
finally starting to take its toll. (i've had a rather large
amount of psychotic interjections throughout the work day resulting in
me laughing my ass off rolling on the ground while twitching and making
utterly random noises and gurgles mwuahsafds BLEEP!)
anyways....
in reading my friends xangas and
looking around at all the stuff that goes on around me... heh i only
remember the big details like... " i didn't spend this weekend at home"
or "i love the crap out of my fantabulous girlfriend <3" or "i
have amazing friends"... it hurts... it bleeds and it leaves me
in this kind of state of dumbfoundedness.... i dont know what to do
about it - its as if my life is slipping out from right underneath my
small feet.
eeep i got distracted and forgot everything i was gonna say =/
literally =/
heh caitlin, i love you <3
you're the raddest of rads that ever radded the radders!
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